Letting Go

I failed.

I can’t believe it.

I have the perfect opportunity to do some “letting go” and I completely missed it.

Okay… so I’m sound asleep and around 6 am I become wide awake with a cramp in my foot.

It’s a charlie horse and it feels like the sides of my soles are trying to meet in the middle.

In the past, if this has happened I usually jump out of bed and stand on it and that relaxes the pain, but… after listening to all the talk about “letting go” I figured I could just “let it go” away.

Too funny.

There I lay, concentrating on “letting go”.

Willing it to let go.

Hmmm, not working.

I will imagine each muscle in my foot being totally relaxed.

Hard to imagine at the level of pain I’m experiencing.

Deep breathe… that will help.

I know it will.

I will deep breathe and then allow the “letting go” to happen.

Hmmm, still not working.

What to try next?

I know… I’ll be present with the pain.

Okay… being present with the pain, being present with the pain, being present with the pain… to heck with being present with the pain.

I leap out of bed, securely plant my foot on the floor and will the pain to go away.

As usual, this eases the flow to the pain receptors but now, because I let it cramp for so long I need to get up and walk around and untie the knots.

After a few trips up and down the hall, I crawl back into bed and a light bulb comes on.

Here I had the perfect opportunity to “let go” but I forgot the steps.

I was trying to get “rid” of something instead of “letting it in”.

Hmmm. So close and yet so far away.

If I never have that experience again to practice, I’m okay with that.

I’ll practice “letting go” in a different way.

In the meantime, I’m going to go to add some additional greens to my smoothies and up my minerals.

It seems the civilized thing to do.

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